Two major events have happened over the past few weeks. One of them being Father's Day and the other being that Joe and I have made it to eleven years of marriage. I was about to add "successfully" but the honest side of me can't truly say that. I think we just kind of hung on and went through this year as best we could. Haha! But I guess if we made it to eleven years, then we are a success in a way, right? In many ways this year (because it has been such a struggle) has really brought Joe and I closer together, even though we are constantly physically apart. All. The. Time. We joke about his other family in Calgary, or his girlfriend because that is how often he is away. Maybe I shouldn't joke about that, but.... I do. Only because I know how impossible that would be. Joe is too good of a man---not to mention too busy---and although all men have their weaknesses, other women with periods and feelings and complaining isn't one of them. He's got enough of that from me. I mean, it's because I am so desirable, that there is no threat. (I am on day three of no showering. Lucky man). So, on our anniversary, I drove down with the kids to meet up with him in Calgary and go on a date. We went out to eat at Joey's (our first date---same location too), and then went to drive/walk around Okotoks in various neighbourhoods we would like to live. We walked along Sheep River and sat on a log and talked. It was such a special feeling. Maybe because we haven't talked like that in a long time. It just reiterated to me that I have the cream of the crop as my companion. And not just because he makes me laugh on a daily basis or because he's an amazing chef and he makes me delicious food all the time, but because he is just a really, really great guy with a good head on his shoulders, and we have the same vision for our marriage and family and our faith is in the same direction. My faith has been crap this year. Not my proudest confession. Way too many disappointing things happening and it's really hard to turn to God sometimes. But I've noticed little by little God answering prayers as I put my faith in him a little more here and there and as I try to do the things that I know are right in my life. I am honestly doing the day to day things like daily personal and family scripture study, personal and family prayers, Family Home Evening, family dinner, etc. I've never stopped. And every once in a while on those really hard days I wonder what it's all for, and then I have these amazing experiences that teach me that my kids are listening and learning and applying, and also that I can apply these things too. And that I need to. The gospel is crazy amazing! I crave church. I need it. I can feel the difference between the weeks when I go and the weeks that I can't go because of sick kids or whatever. Sometimes I want a break from church and volunteer myself to stay home with a sick kid instead of Joe, but I always feel that void. And I'm glad I do, because it reminds me that I NEED God. I NEED the hope that only He can give me. And boy do I need hope. Well. That got really deep fast. All I wanted to talk about really is that we are finally moving away! Finally! I know I mentioned it briefly in my last excerpt, but I wanted to go further into detail. A couple weeks ago, I drove right on back to Okotoks to meet up with Joe and yes, again, I "got" to bring the kids. We went to look at a house that we have had our eyes on for months and that hadn't sold yet. We got to walk through and I got to envision ourselves in this house and neighbourhood. And then the realtor warned us that there might be water damage because it was wood-base built. Um. Break my heart. It was a definite fixer-upper, but it hadn't crossed my mind that we would have to be dealing with that possibly. So alas, we made a decision that very day to rent another property instead. A property I didn't get a chance to walk through. But Joe did. Which means nothing. All he said was that it's very small and it won't fit my piano (my behind it won't!), but the price is right and the neighbourhood is right. And the selling point for me was that we are in a Lake Community, something I have always wanted, so we have access to the beach! I couldn't be more excited. And now looking back on my experience in that first house and feeling so excited about moving on to the next step in our lives, now I see that it's better this way. Now we have time to figure out which neighbourhood we like best in Okotoks before we buy. We have time to be picky and look around. And that makes me really, really, really excited. We will be visiting our ward for the first time this Sunday. And it feels a little weird to know that I will have my own kitchen and home and am in charge of making new friends and how I spend my time. It's all very exciting. Mostly, I am excited that I get to kick Joe's Calgary girlfriend to the curb and he can sleep with me every night again. But as I have been packing this week, it's hit me a little bit that I might actually MISS living here. SHOCK! I know. Maybe it's more that I will miss the experiences we've had here. The times when the cousins come over and Granny reads to them, or we take Charlie's bright idea and have lemonade stands on the curb with FREE lemonade so no one has to worry about splitting the money, freezer-burnt popsicles with the cousins, beach fun at Gull Lake with the fam, having dinner outside on a nice patio set in a massive backyard, holding Christie's new furry child,"Ruff-Ruff/Brutus," and long walks with Grandpa. I will cherish those memories. And the nice thing is, we can continue to enjoy those memories together again when we come to visit because thankfully it's really not that far of a drive away. Colette jokes with me that it will be years before we come back because we will never want to come back. I told her only seven years. No biggie. Ha! Love this family. I will miss my talks with Colette. Looking forward to our new journey with our own little pack.
