It has been a FALL! I kept thinking to myself, "when's the last time I made a journal post?" The answer is the first week of school. Haha! And all the things I worried about were warranted. Things relaxed a bit---not necessarily in school, but I think generally people got complacent and then the numbers for Covid cases went up. So, now we are all paying the price again. Not as bad as back in the Spring, but the boys are home doing online schooling while the girls continue to go to school. I think if I had all four kids back at home, I'd be crying, but this seems to be working out all right. The boys are pretty self-sufficient, although I never really know if Noah is actually on top of his studies or if he just thinks he is. This is where I fail a bit as a parent because I can't seem to make myself dive into Noah's studies when there are about a million other things on my mind. So, I hope that he is on top of it because to figure out this or that google classroom and read through each and every assignment...? No. I already did Grade seven. Maybe that's a terrible way to think, but that is how I feel and a better parent might actually check their children's work to make sure it's getting handed in. I think last Spring broke me so I am feeling rather paralyzed at the moment. Anxiety is real people! Anywho, because of the numbers we have been asked to not gather with friends or family... just in time for the holidays. Haha! It is a big ask and I am really starting to feel it. No Christmas Concerts, no Choir or church concerts, no piano recitals, no dance recitals, no dance class (it's zoom right now). Any extra curricular places where people might gather is a no, and church has asked those who can stay at home and do home church to do just that. They will still carry on, but only with restricted numbers. It is weird. Chamber choir for me was via zoom meets online and they sucked. They are putting together a virtual video of the two songs we learned, but it was pretty much a waste of time. Everyone essentially had to learn their parts on their own anyway, and to gather online just didn't make sense because everyone has to be muted, so you are singing against no one and not really knowing if you are blending with everyone or even singing the correct note unless you go so far as to listen to all the online helps... which I ended up having to do just to make sure I was singing every note correctly. I will not be continuing with choir until we can meet in person again. I really miss choir. I had a day of mourning the day I emailed our director to say I wouldn't be returning. For a moment, the Fall was okay. There were definite restrictions, like no school sports, but the kids still had PE. And after school I had the boys signed up for club basketball, which was essentially skill training---no actual playing against other teams. Just each other. Thankfully when the restrictions to stop all sports happened, they only had one more meet. The girls, however, are in contemporary dance. It has been awesome for the three of them. When I watch them dance I have such a pride come over me. But classes have gone to zoom classes and they are not ideal. At. All. Jane basically doesn't even bother and will check in with me constantly. Or the girls fight because they are in each other's space. I keep waiting for the day when restrictions will ease up, but I don't think that will be for a while. Online school is happening until the second week into January (the girls are even asked to stay home that first week back to school for online school), and dance only goes until January anyway. It's just disappointing because I know they aren't getting the attention needed to progress. Their teacher asked them to send in a video of them doing their dance, and they basically forgot the whole thing. So. Happy to be paying for that.
I remember back in the Summer talking with Joe and his Dad about how long this whole Covid thing would be sticking around and masks and all that and when Joe's Dad said for sure that we would still be in masks in December, I felt sick. And. Here we are. I think we're all just getting used to disappointment right about now.
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